Feeling a little lost!

Not really sure where to begin! This is a big change from where I was last year at this time or even 4 or 5 months ago. A few months ago if you would have asked me if I was where God wanted me to be I would have said "Yes" without a doubt. A year ago I would have said the same thing. Today, I am not sure at all what God has in store for me, but as of late I feel a lot like that Matthew West song....."Motions". I feel like I am just going through the "Motions" which for me is very difficult to understand since at this point last year I was on FIRE! A very close friend of mine noticed the difference in me simply by just hearing my voice over the phone which was a little disheartening! Ray said something in his sermon last week that really caught my attention "He said that God had Joshua march his armies around the city 7 times and then sound their trumpet, he said even though Joshua didn't understand why he was doing it he just obeyed and did it anyways". I have been dealing with something very similar to this concept in my own life. There are things going on within the serving Christ areas of my life that I just wasn't understanding or even comprehending why or if it made sense, but as soon as Ray said that I knew that I was supposed to hear it. I know that each week I am supposed to hear Ray's sermons and they do minister to me in a different way each and every week, but I all of a sudden feel like that is the only thing I am getting out of going to church and that hurts deeply. I am not exactly sure what has changed, my relationship with my wife has gotten stronger as a result of listening and learning during the Home Improvement series, and her I and I are on the same page for maybe the first time ever on just about everything. She has been wonderful, and understanding while I am going through these things and I could not ask for a better spouse and we are so glad that we were able to be there for the Home Improvement series. I guess in closing this book of a blog post, all I can ask is that you pray for me, pray that I find what it is I am looking for in my walk with the Lord and that He will show me the direction that He has for me and that it would be a crisp clear picture of His desire for me and my family! Thank You. In case you haven't heard the song "The Motions" here are the lyrics for it.........

This might hurt
It’s not safe
But I know that I’ve gotta make a change
I don’t care
If I break
At least I’ll be feeling something
‘Cause just ok
Is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don’t wanna go through the motions
I don’t wanna go one more day
Without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don’t wanna spend my whole life asking
What if I had given everything?
Instead of going through the motions

No regrets
Not this time
I’m gonna let my heart defeat my mind
Let Your love
Make me whole
I think I’m finally feeling something

Take me all the way
Take me all the way
Take me all the way