Feeling a little lost!

Not really sure where to begin! This is a big change from where I was last year at this time or even 4 or 5 months ago. A few months ago if you would have asked me if I was where God wanted me to be I would have said "Yes" without a doubt. A year ago I would have said the same thing. Today, I am not sure at all what God has in store for me, but as of late I feel a lot like that Matthew West song....."Motions". I feel like I am just going through the "Motions" which for me is very difficult to understand since at this point last year I was on FIRE! A very close friend of mine noticed the difference in me simply by just hearing my voice over the phone which was a little disheartening! Ray said something in his sermon last week that really caught my attention "He said that God had Joshua march his armies around the city 7 times and then sound their trumpet, he said even though Joshua didn't understand why he was doing it he just obeyed and did it anyways". I have been dealing with something very similar to this concept in my own life. There are things going on within the serving Christ areas of my life that I just wasn't understanding or even comprehending why or if it made sense, but as soon as Ray said that I knew that I was supposed to hear it. I know that each week I am supposed to hear Ray's sermons and they do minister to me in a different way each and every week, but I all of a sudden feel like that is the only thing I am getting out of going to church and that hurts deeply. I am not exactly sure what has changed, my relationship with my wife has gotten stronger as a result of listening and learning during the Home Improvement series, and her I and I are on the same page for maybe the first time ever on just about everything. She has been wonderful, and understanding while I am going through these things and I could not ask for a better spouse and we are so glad that we were able to be there for the Home Improvement series. I guess in closing this book of a blog post, all I can ask is that you pray for me, pray that I find what it is I am looking for in my walk with the Lord and that He will show me the direction that He has for me and that it would be a crisp clear picture of His desire for me and my family! Thank You. In case you haven't heard the song "The Motions" here are the lyrics for it.........

This might hurt
It’s not safe
But I know that I’ve gotta make a change
I don’t care
If I break
At least I’ll be feeling something
‘Cause just ok
Is not enough
Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don’t wanna go through the motions
I don’t wanna go one more day
Without Your all consuming passion inside of me
I don’t wanna spend my whole life asking
What if I had given everything?
Instead of going through the motions

No regrets
Not this time
I’m gonna let my heart defeat my mind
Let Your love
Make me whole
I think I’m finally feeling something

Take me all the way
Take me all the way
Take me all the way

Vacation! (Time to reflect in God)

As many of you know I was on a little "vacation" for 12 days. I fully believe that God had me in that situation for a couple of reasons and that I either fulfilled those reasons or he fulfilled some things inside of me during that time and what was supposed to come out of it, DID in fact come out of it! If that makes any sense to you all! Well Monday evening when I finally got to come home, my family and I decided to spend my first night of freedom with the Brock small group and I must say that I do not think there is a more outrageous bunch of Christians out there. We had an awesome evening, I was so glad to be back around the people that I love and respect and God is doing amazing things in and through His people at AXIOM. Also that evening when we got home from church we had a card in the mail with no return address to it. Someone had sent us a much needed $50 gift card and we are sure that it came from church because it was playing "How Great is Our God" when we opened it. Diana cried and I was just blown away by the love that we continuously receive and the fact that no one was judgmental about the entire situation and I DIG that about Axiom. I (we) love you one and all. Thank you for the gift card whoever you are and know that you blessed our socks off!

Vader working for Target!

Business Experiences

I recently hired someone to set appointments for me, so that I could focus more on presenting my products I offer and focus less on setting appointments which physically and mentally drains me. Well after a week of training someone, she quit! She didn't even call me she quit by text! Wow. I could never have thought that I would endure that especially with the person who did it! Anyways, you live and you learn I guess. So now I am racking my brain trying to figure out someone I can get to set appointments for me and work the hours I need them to work!

New Untitled Song!

If I were to walk away from You
If I were to turn my back on You again
Jesus would you love my heart and tell me I'm Your friend

By Your grace, You've restored me to my rightful place
By Your side, from Your love I will not run and hide
and its Your blood that sets the sinners free

Your grace pours out flowing life eternally
it is Your blood that sets the sinners free
and it's plain to see, that God Your love is
always here for me

And Lord we praise and lift Your name on High

On my knees to give myself to you
Here I am Lord take my heart again
Jesus You are my Rock on You I choose to stand

King of Kings and Lord of Lords
And Lord we praise and lift Your name on High
Maker of all the Universe
And to You O Lord Your name be glorified

Use these hands to work for You
Lord let us bring glory to your name
Touch their hearts
let them never be the same

Healer of broken hearts and pain
Healer of the blind, deaf and the lame
And the truth is Lord Your love remains the same


I have actually put this to music and I think it sounds AWESOME! I am going to run this by Chris as soon as we meet again, who knows he may like it so much he may want to use this on Sunday's! I think it would be very catchy!